am i ok?

nope. I'm not ok. i am a complete fucking mess. you did nothing wrong. i was a total disaster long before.
i don't know why I'm so damaged... diseased... but if i knew the cure, I'd have fixed it for you.. fixed me...
i had no idea i was so broken. i would have fixed me a long time ago.
it's amazing the way some people can show you what's inside of you.