Hauntings

It still smells like you in here
I'm afraid to vape because I don't want to lose your smell
The dog still looks for you
When I drive up in your car
When we walk past your car
When he smells you
I don't wanna clean because I feel like I'll be cleaning up what's left of you
I can't bear to leave you behind
And the weird things your tv is doing cannot be explained
I hope you're at peace
Wherever you are
I miss you so much
I miss our morning coffee, I'm drinking yours for you now
I miss our trips to the grocery store
I miss running into you away from home
I miss you being home with me
This loss may be the death of me

Mom

Bittersweet reminders of you
They bring me a glow of joy
And then a crash into the depths
They surround me and I can't leave
My home, my love, my birth

A tattered baby blanket sits on a box
Inside are pictures and trinkets you lovingly saved
I can't let go... You made me
You were there for every little thing
Through mud and sand, you were there
Your very presence felt like home

How do I let go of home?
The person who gave me life...
Worked at a job she hated
To put a roof over our head
Raised us to be one
Empress to everyone
A true rose in the garden
Like her "ugly" tattoo branded her to be

All I can give you anymore is all of my love
I hope with all my heart that you are doing ok
Wherever you are... I wish you'd never left
With every passing minute
I only miss you more