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Thursday, December 17, 2015

Actual conversations etc:


"Well how many times have you tried to move her out of state??" Once. The answer is once. I had a job there, and gave him 3 months notice.

"if her asthma medications are working so well, why does she have to keep taking them?" He followed this gem with "it's all just a money making scam. Everybody knows doctors get paid based on how many drugs they prescribe"

"i'm sick of all these doctors (one) prescribing all these drugs. She's a just child."
This is during a psychotic episode. All of the meds she currently takes are for asthma.

"i have a legal right to all of her record, including notes from her counselors."

"i have a legal right to refuse to have her put on medications"

"i have a legal right to refuse to give her medications"

"it's your fault I owe so much child support. You should forgive my debt so I can get a license again (hasn't had one since age 17, before I knew him)

" it's all your fault that my daughter doesn't like me. You talk shit about me" just blatantly not true...

" I'M NOT YELLING! You're just not listening!" Spoken while yelling...

"stop chewing on your fucking arm and get your ass off the couch and come with me. You're being stupid" his response to our child literally chewing a hole in her arm out of fear and anxiety because he wouldn't stop.

When I tried to move to California for a job (the only time I've ever "tried" to move her anywhere out of state), his response was "you can't keep me from my child. She's mine!" We hadn't heard from him in a year. I'm pretty sure I didn't legally even have to tell him, since that's considered abandonment...

Oooh here's another one. "i talked to a nurse I know and she said Teresa's on way to many meds"

Mmm and "you cheated on me so why should I pay you anything? It's all your fault we're not together" I never cheated on him, or anyone else for that matter

"she needs to be on less medication." Right after all of her meds were reduced. "i have the right to know exactly what's going into her body at all times. I have the right to know every single medication she's on, what it does, and why she's on it" which sounds reasonable, except for the fact that he'd just been given an ROI and spoken to her Dr.

Oh and step mom "sicotropic drugs could kill her" her misspelling, not mine. " if you knew anything about them, you'd know that" bitch, I'm a mental health technician, a cna and someone who carefully researches every medication either of us takes (from reputable sources) before any are taken.

"marijuana kills cancer cells (it does kill some types, I'll give them that), so why wouldn't it cure asthma?" There is some research that this could be true, but I still don't need a high kid. There were times when we refused to drop her off there because the whole house was full of pot smoke. With their toddler there. I should've reported them. I could lose my license because I didn't.

"How do you even know it's my kid?" This could be a legitimate question, except that we lived and worked together when she was conceived. We literally saw each other 24 hours a day

"everyone I know is telling me that you're only pregnant because you wanted to trap me and take all my money. It's probably not even mine" this was after he begged me to have his child so his dying mom would have a grandkids she was allowed to see

"can I just sign my rights over and disappear?" I wish I'd said yes.

Here's a great one taken directly from a text that my daughter's step mom sent that my daughter says is 100% bullshit:
"There are two sides to every story. No I don't believe in meds unless necessary and often they do more harm then good...psychotropic drugs can cause infertility and even death just to name a few.  Oh course were concerned! She crys in my arms too !...about how depressed she is at home and how she can't make u happy...and how she's scared to leave u because she thinks you might kill yourself....I think there is a bigger picture here... We need to put aside the shit and do what's best for Teresa and that means not talking shit about each other!!! That's why I don't bring these things up.. ..she's stressed because she feels she can only please u or dad and has little say in what she really wants" I'm not even depressed. I've actually been in a manic state for a few months now (or at least I would be if I wasn't so well managed on medications). I have a full time job that I love, that pays our bills, that I love working at, a beautiful child who I love more than anything, and several animals whose company I enjoy daily. There are many people depending on me, especially my daughter. She knows I'm not going anywhere.

"it's not an asthma attack, you just need to calm down" says step mom after taking away her inhaler and giving her water instead. "You're too dependant on that thing".

"i believe that the body has the ability to heal itself from anything... All you have to do is believe you're healed".

"you shouldn't be so attached to your mom"

Oh - Step mom:
"I don't think he (my daughter's dad) should have to pay any child support because he puts a roof over everyone's head and buys you clothes and stuff for here (their house)". This one was spoken to my daughter. The two of them often use her as a messenger, despite my objections to it. And anyway, nobody's putting a damn roof over my head. He's just using his new family as an excuse to not pay child support. Plus, his house is off limits to me.

She's not allowed to call me for any reason when she's at his house, nor am I allowed to call her. He says it interferes with their bonding time. He refuses to take time off while she's there because work is the only place he's happy.

I'll add to this as I remember things and as he says new stupid shit.

Daughter came home and reported, "i know the real reason you and dad broke up. It's because you were cheating on him. Corissa told me so". False. I've never cheated on anyone. I told her it was false and she didn't appear to believe me (which is unusual for her because she knows I'd never lie to her). Lying is a waste of time and energy. I believe this was an intentional attempt to drive a wedge between me and by daughter. She was dropped off at home around midnight, and reported sleeping from sometime in the morning until 9pm. 

Sunday, December 13, 2015

Really? Not surprised.

I always thought I couldn't cook because I'm one of those people who burn pans and mess up pasta. I can fuck up an English muffin. Then I saw someone I know post a picture of red beans and rice, and I remember that I can cook that. I can also cook boxed rice, macaroni and cheese, I can even make that one from scratch, I can make bread, I know how to make tortillas. I know how to turn dried whole beans into refried beans (and they're good), and can do the same thing with really any bean... I can make kidney beans taste good. I make killer grilled cheese sandwiches, and amazing cookies. I do know how to cook. I just don't know how to make rich people food. I can make top ramen taste like it's real, and white rice into fried rice, I even know how to cook ground beef, the only raw meat I've ever handled. I know how to make churros, taco shells, tortilla chips, hard candy, coffee syrups... Cream pies (those are made with jello pudding). Potato tacos... I'm giving myself the munchies now.