Baby

This really sucks. It's so wrong... how did it come to this? I feel like I failed you by losing, but I know it all came down to money. But I lost access to the most precious person in the world to me. I hope our bond will be able to remain through this. I will keep fighting for you in whatever way I can. I miss you so much. I love you so much. It breaks my heart that we're apart right now. I always did the best I could for you... I hope you know that. I think you do.

Letter to mom

It's been hard without you... there has been a lot going on. I have good support, but nobody could ever replace you. I miss you every day. I'm not sure what else to say, really. I feel like the chapter has closed, though I still talk to you from time to time, just in case you can hear me. Sometimes I ask your advice and think of what you would probably say. I miss our weekend bonfires, and really everything. Walking the dog together, even just getting groceries... texting each other from opposite ends of the house. I just miss you. I'm OK, but I miss you, and I could sure use your help. I'm in a mess right now. I know I can sort it out on my own... I have faith in myself, but it would be easier with you, even just for support.
I love you always 💜