wtf is my problem????

Ok, I've been trying really hard to hide it... but this is killing me... I really believed in you... I was so sure... and thinking that you're really gone this time is so unbelievably painful that it literally knocks the wind out of my chest... i don't know where you are, what you're thinking... you probably hate me... but i have never been more sure about anyone than i was about you... i can't stop thinking about you and i still don't think i want to, but i guess i have to let you go...