so. i am currently employed as a CNA in a facility i won't name (or discuss). this job is far better suited to my natural, innate skillset than any other I've ever had, but i can't stand the thought of doing it without an exit plan. i love the work in many ways, and don't love it in others - most importantly, the knowledge that I'll never be paid enough to support my child doing this...
I'm trying to decide where to aim in college. i really don't have any idea at all. the worst part is that this will be my fourth (or maybe fifth?) run at college, and I've changed majors at least twice as many times. i know exactly where i want to be; the bullseye; if you will, but doubt the possibility of the usual path within the board of my life. spending four years getting perfect grades in a science major, as much as I'd love it; just isn't what reality holds in my world.
anyway... I'm trying to decide my alternate path. i think i may have found a route that might make it possible to land where i really want to end up, however slowly and indirectly. i was filling out the application when it occurred to me that this method is akin to an unskilled, untrained, possibly heavily inebriated person throwing darts at a board and hoping to get "lucky". kinda sad, really. oh well.
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